Grease head

Constipation, insomnia, depression?

All right. I have identified that my trouble is not coming from the shots I am giving myself. It's the Trazodone that was making me more lethargic, in my guts and in the rest of my body, and depressed EVERY DAY. I wish I had gotten Ambien. At this point, I don't care about the potential addiction, and with other drugs I have taken, it is not an issue. Traz is crap. I didn't take it last night and already, today, I feel so much better. Constipation is a potential side effect of BOTH Trazodone and Neupogen (the shots.) That's gotten a lot better, too. Today I did develop a reddish bump on my forearm above my wrist. Folks thought it was probably a spider bite. I'm going to take some Benedryl tonight, see if that helps.

I used to have oily hair. Now I have an oily head. Makes sense, doesn't it? My head has a kind of muskiness that transfers to my head covers unless I take precautions. I seem to favor one-step head covers for around-the-house needs these days, like the one that Nora sent me (pictured below) from Hawaii, and a few buffs that Dhammagita sent. I'm using the pretty scarves, too, but mostly not wrapping them around my head.

Hippie acupuncture

I don't even look like this.

My face is still a bit numb, that hasn't changed. Someone in the support group yesterday said she had had that too.

Listened to a bit of Malcolm Gladwell's What the Dog Saw tonight. Fascinating, especially the part about Cesar Millan, analyzing how he moves...

Movie night on Bartlett St.: Watched a bit of Koyaanisqatsi. And Quadrophenia including important Q&A with Padmatara. (So was it a clothing issue between the Mods and the Rockers? Is that Sting? What's Beachy Head?) It was astonishing how often the men call each other cunts. I suppose the equivalent here is calling someone a pussy. But it seems so much worse.

THIS JUST IN:
Friend from Britain clarifies:

Pussy is saying someone is a wimp or cowardly or feeble (basically a man who’s seen as behaving like a woman in some negative way). Cunt is much worse (partly as it’s always been such a taboo word) – it’s someone who’s a complete bastard, or totally stupid, or really thoughtless or selfish, etc, or simply someone you hate - more the equivalent of asshole for you, but actually I think it's more weighty than asshole. Of course as always it depends on who’s saying it to whom. It’s so long since I saw Quadrophenia I can't remember it – but often it’s used as a sort of friendly banter way (like any other insulting word can be).

You may also be interested to know that calling someone a ‘berk’, while it sounds much less insulting (and indeed is generally intended as much less insulting) actyally means cunt, as it comes from rhyming slang – Berkely Hunt/cunt.

So my summary is, a super harsh yet almost friendly way for a British male to refer to a male friend, using a very bad word for vagina.