|I loved the spiders|
at the Besakih temple
I sorta feel that I want to take care of myself in other ways, and let nature take its course. But I can't really say that until I am responding to a specific proposal. A while ago Dr. Nelson was talking about chemotherapy as if it might add a few months to my life. She is going to consult with Dr. Brooks at UCSF before we meet on January 15, at which time I guess I'll find out what chemotherapy she's going to suggest. (She won't suggest actually starting anything until I start having symptoms.) She will not be surprised if I refuse more treatment, since at least based on what she's told me before, what's on offer will be more reliably take away functionality than add time.
Still, all my records have been sent to Dr. Keith Block in Chicago and I have written to them asking if I can do a phone consultation with them the week I am back. Also, Nancy found a doctor/contact for me at UCSF clinical trials who I'll hopefully be talking to in February.
It occurred to me that my toes are still numb, but it doesn't bother me when I'm somewhere warm.
Travelogue: Yesterday we found an excellent hippy-dippy raw cafe called Down to Earth with the most delicious Middle Eastern plate, possibly the best I have ever had. Today we motored to Tanah Lot, a temple to sea gods on the ocean. It was fun, but physically challenging. Sitting on the back of a motorcycle is like an extreme yoga position for me. There is also some inhaling of exhaust that's involved, and when it's not raining the heat is of course...equatorial. I felt tired. Every night the air con irritates my lungs and my throat. If I turn it off, I start to sweat while being devoured by mosquitoes. (The mozzies aren't bad in general...only in the middle of the night when you turn off the air con!)
I don't want to complain, but I don't want to be vague either. This is a lovely place, and I am enjoying it. I think it's hard for people to get this when we aren't together in person: So far I do not feel sick, and I do not look sick. If you saw me the only difference you would notice is that my hair is very short. I have been described as "full of life" - that has not changed.